In just a couple very short weeks you start a new and exciting journey. It feels like just yesterday we brought you home from the hospital and you needed me to change you, feed you, entertain you, and help you learn about the world. Now you are heading off to kindergarten and you sweet girl, are ready and already do those things all by yourself.
I love watching you learn new things and teaching yourself how to ride a two wheeler, tie your shoes, snap, whistle, and even swim. You are so determined and focused in all you put your mind to. It is such a joy to watch your sweet personality bloom and yet sad to see all the ways in which you don't need me to help you. When did you grow up to be such a big girl? This new chapter of your life seems like a huge step. School will now be a part of your life till you are a grown up. Learning and developing friendships in school will now just be part of your normal.
I'm going to miss so many things about the last 5 years we have had together. I'm going to miss waking up in the morning and just sitting together eating breakfast and having no where to be but with each other. I'm going to miss reading to you the same favorite books over and over again. I'm going to miss the days when we have no plans and end up running errands or drive around on a special adventure together. You are my favorite person to be with and do lots and do nothing with. But these things aren't completely gone. We can still have these special times together after school. We can still have special mommy/Emsley afternoons just being together.
But as sad as I may feel to let you grow up, oh Emsley, you are so ready. I want to be strong for you so you go into that first day with confidence and no fear. That you walk in and show what an amazingly strong, beautiful, kind, and intelligent little girl you are. I will hold so many tears back, as I'm doing right now just typing this out. But know that I am so happy for you and for the wonderful things you will learn and memories you will make.
There will be days baby that will be hard. Kids might be mean to you and you will hear and learn things that I wish I could shelter you from forever. But I don't want to hide you from the world but let you learn about it on your own and then come home and talk to me about it. And if school is hard, ask for help and try your best. Your daddy and I are here to help you as much as we can. And never forget that in your life, we will always be cheering you on for success. Don't let the struggles in school bring you down but let it light a fire in you to try harder and to strive for greatness.
I want you to walk into that class at your new school and show the sweet and amazingly huge heart you have. I have loved seeing you care for others and hate when bad things happen to you or your friends. Keep that big heart girl. Go to school each day finding ways to love others well. Show them the love that Jesus has shown you. Be the light in a dark world. When others tear down, find ways to build others up. This won't be easy but trust that this is how the Lord desires your heart to be.
Each day when you come home, know that home is safe and a hug and a cookie are waiting for you. So here we go Emsley Bee. Off to this big adventure. My girl is going to be great and I am so blessed to be able to watch you as you jump head first.
I love you with all my heart sweetheart.
Love, Mommy
You and daddy walking around Stanford. Maybe in 13 years we will be dropping you off there for college. Oh man.
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