Monday, February 27, 2012

Going to court...

Well, we officially have a date to finalize Emsley's adoption. March 7th! I know it seems soon but we are so grateful. Our lawyer told us that the courts are scheduling about 90 days out but when we requested a date, they gave him the 7th. This day is very exciting. No more paperwork, no more waiting, no more meetings, no more preparing our home for a social worker, no more. To us, she is already ours. She is our daughter whom we love and cherish. But now it will be official to the state. We will have our names on her birth certificate...Mother, Kimberly Wise...Father, Michael Wise. I know that seems probably silly to care about but it will be nice to have it all in writing.

I will post pictures afterwards. I am so joyful that this day is finally here. I'm gonna buy Emsley (and maybe myself!) a cute dress for the day. Then we will be less than 2 months from celebrating our big girls 1st birthday! Oh my!!!

Saturday, February 18, 2012

10 months old


**Sorry this is a day late. Yesterday slipped by us and date night was last night!

Our little girl is 10 months old. I feel like this has been a fun and interesting month. She had a pretty tough growth spurt and got a couple teeth and it made everything uncomfortable. Emsley isn't a fussy baby but it made eating new food hard and taking naps a challenge. But after it was all over, she is still a great eater and sleeper! We took Emsley to the zoo for the first time this past weekend with my family and it was so fun. I'm glad we waited 10 months because I think any earlier and she wouldn't have even been able to see where the animals were. But she saw them, pointed, and even waved at them. It was great. Again, another month of tons of fun and lots of love.

Here are some stats as she turns 10 months:

-Weighs approximately 23 pounds now
-Is approximately 29 1/2 inches tall
-Wears size 4 diapers still
-Is mainly in 18 month clothes (but she has some cute 12 month that she still wears too!)
-Eats 5 bottles a day still but we are hoping to get one of them gone soon
-East 3 meals a day and she now eats off our plates more, chicken, rice, pasta, lots of things!
-Still sleeping through the night (thank the Lord!)
-Takes a bath just in the tub now like a big girl and this is the highlight of her nights...daddy is the best bath giver and its a special time for the two of them!
-We are pretty sure Emsley is a crawl-aholic! She is always on the move!! So precious.
-Pulls up on anything and cruises around the house...walking is just around the corner
-Has been letting go of things when standing with no support but only for a second
-Makes friends everywhere...even the creepy people. We will teach her about strangers soon!
-Now has her two bottom teeth and 4 top teeth. She is SOOOO cute!
-She used to love to walk with us but now is focusing on talking and talks to everything and about everything. Nothings obvious yet...the cat is something like "ca-ca"

I'm sure we are biased but Emsley is the most beautiful and loving baby we have ever been around. She is so sweet and brings such joy to our lives. Sometimes we will go and check on her before we go to bed and just watch her for a minute because we feel so happy and blessed to be her parents. Our little girl is growing fast but it is a fun journey so far and we are so excited for each next stage!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Questions I will have to face...

I'm aware that Emsley is only almost 10 months old and can't talk but it recently occurred to me that eventually I will have to face the tough questions with her. And no, I'm not talking about the birds and the bees type questions, I mean the adoption questions.

"Why wasn't I inside mommy's tummy?"

"How come my birthmom gave me away?"

"Did she love me?"

"Why couldn't you have real children?"

"Am I your real child?"

"Do you love me as much as you would a biological child?"

Wow, these are some really deep questions and I have such a desire to answer them as honestly as possible. Adoption isn't something Mike and I just jumped into. We spent a lot of time praying and talking about what this life changing decision would mean for us. Do I have all the answers to these tough questions...no. But I'm pretty comfortable with that.

All Emsley needs to know is that she is loved by so many people and that Miss Amy knew she couldn't give Emsley the family she deserved and loved her so much that she found us to take care of her. My daughter will always understand that she was adopted but I know these questions will arise.

On one hand I'm excited to share the answers with her. To remind her of how much she is loved and about how God planned her life is such a beautiful, unique way. Each time we have to answer one of these questions, I truly believe that we will bond in such a special way. The idea of Emsley asking these questions also scares me and makes me so sad. I hate that I will have to face these and I hate that she may ask them because she is hurting or confused. I just have to continue to pray that God gives us the wisdom and strength to face this. He already knows what the answers are to these questions and if or when they will come up in our life. I pray that Emsley feels comfortable to ask and know that we will be honest with her.

These are the tough parts of adoption but it's also why God called us to it. He knows we can do this and that through these conversations we will give Him all the glory!!!