So from March 7th till the 15th we will be vacating our lives for 8 glorious nights in Kauai! It's almost like a second honeymoon. Ahh...cannot wait...here is a little picture of the view from where I plan on plopping myself down at!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A Hawaiian Vacation
Yes, that is right...Mike and I are going to Hawaii on vacation! We booked our plane tickets on Friday night and are so happy! I have never been to Hawaii...so when we started talking about going on a little "babymoon" we both agreed that we just wanted to relax and do nothing else. No touristy stuff like we usually do. And I'm not gonna lie, that is a hard concept for me. My family was more of a "let's see everything while we are here" kind of people. So that is typically how I like to get away. We have been to New York, Disney World, San Francisco...and each time we come back so tired from walking around or sightseeing. We wanted NONE of that this time!
So from March 7th till the 15th we will be vacating our lives for 8 glorious nights in Kauai! It's almost like a second honeymoon. Ahh...cannot wait...here is a little picture of the view from where I plan on plopping myself down at!
So from March 7th till the 15th we will be vacating our lives for 8 glorious nights in Kauai! It's almost like a second honeymoon. Ahh...cannot wait...here is a little picture of the view from where I plan on plopping myself down at!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Walking by faith
I thought this time after being matched would be easier. That we would feel joy and peace. That all the worry, doubt, fear, and anxiousness would fall away because of those beautiful three words: we are matched. But God is showing me and Mike that it is in this new waiting time that we have to trust Him even more.
I think in the last month we have taken this matched news for granted. We praise God for what He has given us, but neglected to get on our knees before Him asking for Him to guide us and continue to draw us closer to Him. It's like we have said, "Hey God, thanks for all you've done and for getting us a baby, but we've got it from here." And just thinking about that terrible attitude makes me feel so ashamed. I need my Father in all aspects of my life, not just through the obviously hard things.
This all came out because we wrote our coordinator, Michelle and didn't hear from her in almost two weeks. We wrote just to see how the birthmom was. When she wrote us, she said that she hasn't been able to get a hold of her and has left here a couple messages. In my eyes, this is not a good sign. Our fear started...is she changing her mind?? And after talking this through, I was reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." What struck me was the "lean not on your own understanding" part. I mean, that is what we have been doing. We weren't acknowledging God and trusting His way. We thought we knew what was going on with the birthmom and let it get to us. We should have given that email to the Lord and trust that whatever is going on with the birthmom and our child is totally in His hands and is already planned out perfectly in His will for our lives.
Needless to say, we gave it to God and are going to continue trusting Him. We WILL wait for our baby to be born in April. We WILL go on a vacation to spend time together in March. I WILL quit my job in March in anticipation of being a stay at home mom shortly after. Not doing any of these things is not trusting God. We want to make every decision, attitude, and feeling a leap of faith. Faith in our perfect, all-knowing, amazing God, who loves us and only does what is good and perfect according to HIS will.
I think in the last month we have taken this matched news for granted. We praise God for what He has given us, but neglected to get on our knees before Him asking for Him to guide us and continue to draw us closer to Him. It's like we have said, "Hey God, thanks for all you've done and for getting us a baby, but we've got it from here." And just thinking about that terrible attitude makes me feel so ashamed. I need my Father in all aspects of my life, not just through the obviously hard things.
This all came out because we wrote our coordinator, Michelle and didn't hear from her in almost two weeks. We wrote just to see how the birthmom was. When she wrote us, she said that she hasn't been able to get a hold of her and has left here a couple messages. In my eyes, this is not a good sign. Our fear started...is she changing her mind?? And after talking this through, I was reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." What struck me was the "lean not on your own understanding" part. I mean, that is what we have been doing. We weren't acknowledging God and trusting His way. We thought we knew what was going on with the birthmom and let it get to us. We should have given that email to the Lord and trust that whatever is going on with the birthmom and our child is totally in His hands and is already planned out perfectly in His will for our lives.
Needless to say, we gave it to God and are going to continue trusting Him. We WILL wait for our baby to be born in April. We WILL go on a vacation to spend time together in March. I WILL quit my job in March in anticipation of being a stay at home mom shortly after. Not doing any of these things is not trusting God. We want to make every decision, attitude, and feeling a leap of faith. Faith in our perfect, all-knowing, amazing God, who loves us and only does what is good and perfect according to HIS will.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Preparing for change
I know that in the past I have written about change and how I am not a fan. Yet change is what I have been preparing for for the last 3 years or so. Mike and I have been either trying to get pregnant or start our family through adoption for over 3 years now, we have been actively trying to create change. So now that we are officially going to be parents in April, we are preparing for this impending change. And sometimes I am totally freaked out about it or I am so excited that April seems forever away.
Last week, I was reading a book (which turned out to be the saddest, most deressing book ever). While reading it at 11:30 at night, I started balling my eyes out. The book was at a point where the the mom and dad had their first child and their relationship got terrible. My tears came from a fear of the change that is about to happen in our marriage. Not a bad change, and actually a change that I have been waiting for for such a long time! So in the midst of my tears, Mike woke up and comforted me and we talked about how we both desire for our marriage to always come first (after our relationship with God!). We want regular date night (with the help of our wonderful friends and family as babysitters!!), and we want to have conversations with each other and other people that don't revolve around our children or parenting. These are things we long for when we become parents.
The change that is coming for the Wise household is now totally and completely welcome. It is going to be a beautiful and precious thing. And I cannot wait to be a mommy...just had to throw that in too!
Last week, I was reading a book (which turned out to be the saddest, most deressing book ever). While reading it at 11:30 at night, I started balling my eyes out. The book was at a point where the the mom and dad had their first child and their relationship got terrible. My tears came from a fear of the change that is about to happen in our marriage. Not a bad change, and actually a change that I have been waiting for for such a long time! So in the midst of my tears, Mike woke up and comforted me and we talked about how we both desire for our marriage to always come first (after our relationship with God!). We want regular date night (with the help of our wonderful friends and family as babysitters!!), and we want to have conversations with each other and other people that don't revolve around our children or parenting. These are things we long for when we become parents.
The change that is coming for the Wise household is now totally and completely welcome. It is going to be a beautiful and precious thing. And I cannot wait to be a mommy...just had to throw that in too!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Here's to 2011!
Well another year is started and I am so excited. We celebrated with a few friends last night and spent time reflecting on some great moments of 2010 and also what we are looking forward to this year...
In 2010, actually just a month ago or so, we got a call from our coordinator Michelle and said that a birth couple would like to meet us. They liked another couple but really wanted to meet soon. So that next Wednesday, Mike and I drove to a Starbucks in Corona and met with them. The meeting was very nice and comfortable. We left feeling good about our time and that we were truly ourselves. It was the next Monday that Michelle called and said that we are GOING TO BE PARENTS!!! We were offically matched and could not be more excited. Baby Wise is expected to arrive April of 2011!
So yes, 2010 pretty much rocked for us. We had many ups and downs but we can look back on those fondly because it brought us to where we are today...right on the cusp of parenthood.
2011 is looking good so far. We hopefully will get to find out if we are going to have a little girl or boy soon and can go crazy buying clothes! We cannot wait to be parents and know that the next few months will zoom by...We are hoping we can get a little babymoon vacation in and to really spend time with friends who live out of the area and really enjoy these last few months as a family of 2. Our lives will be so different this time next year. I don't know what it will look like but I probably won't have 15 minutes to myself at 10AM to write a post. I will have a beautiful child in my arms and no matter what it is doing...crying, screaming, cooing, or just sleeping, I will be so in love with that moment and that little bundle of ours.
Ours...wow. Here's to a great 2011!
In 2010, actually just a month ago or so, we got a call from our coordinator Michelle and said that a birth couple would like to meet us. They liked another couple but really wanted to meet soon. So that next Wednesday, Mike and I drove to a Starbucks in Corona and met with them. The meeting was very nice and comfortable. We left feeling good about our time and that we were truly ourselves. It was the next Monday that Michelle called and said that we are GOING TO BE PARENTS!!! We were offically matched and could not be more excited. Baby Wise is expected to arrive April of 2011!
So yes, 2010 pretty much rocked for us. We had many ups and downs but we can look back on those fondly because it brought us to where we are today...right on the cusp of parenthood.
2011 is looking good so far. We hopefully will get to find out if we are going to have a little girl or boy soon and can go crazy buying clothes! We cannot wait to be parents and know that the next few months will zoom by...We are hoping we can get a little babymoon vacation in and to really spend time with friends who live out of the area and really enjoy these last few months as a family of 2. Our lives will be so different this time next year. I don't know what it will look like but I probably won't have 15 minutes to myself at 10AM to write a post. I will have a beautiful child in my arms and no matter what it is doing...crying, screaming, cooing, or just sleeping, I will be so in love with that moment and that little bundle of ours.
Ours...wow. Here's to a great 2011!
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